i have tried so long and so hard with this. [rennes]

i'm worried it might be time to throw in the towel soon.

there have been too many fails.  i have stood up after falling so many times only to say it's going to make me stronger, but i don't know if i can stand up anymore.

i'm sorry this is vague.  i know i shouldn't talk about the "hard times" in a public space.  but it is really really hard right now.


monica said...

i just wanted to let you know that i've been following rennes online for many years now, & consider your growth as a company to be so inspiring and amazing.

hugs from an internet stranger <3

Carolynn Markey said...

yours is the first blog I ever found, and I still have the wonderful necklace I won from you. I love it to this day. What is fail? Have you failed? I wouldn't say so, at least to me. I admire you and I read your blog. I hope you keep writing, but I realize everyone moves on, and also time is a very expensive commodity.

Jenny said...

I think what you've built - here on the Internet, and with your craft - is not just space but a world. Thru your site I bought a bag and I know (some of) the story of the person behind it. It's not just a thing, but a part of a story. The struggle is real and if you do decide to move on I'd wish you all the very best in the next phase of your life but shifting gears is not failing!

Anonymous said...

I have three pouches of yours and I love them to death! I hope you are able to get through this. :'(

Gabi Hutchison said...

My husband and I own a business, a bookstore, and let me just say I feel you. Finances are hard, burn out is hard, personal-life is hard and gets in the way of building our business. Sometimes we work so hard and get nothing out of it. It's overwhelming and discouraging and we wonder why we're doing it at all. I have no idea what your life is like (and I realize this isn't a very good pep talk), but I wanted to say these things so you know you're not alone.

I'm sorry you're doubting and struggling. Of course it's easy for me as an outsider and stranger on the internet to tell you I hope you continue doing what you're doing, that it's special and important. You have one of the best shops out there and your leather goods are beyond beautiful. I love the glimpses of your personality that come through in your blog, especially at a time when so many blogs and personal brands seem completely lifeless and inauthentic. That's not you. It's great that you post about things like Doctor Who and even write tough posts like this. As a reader I appreciate that kind of authenticity and honesty. But I think it's good to know and trust yourself and know it's okay to let go of what isn't working for you. I'd love to see your work and your shop stick around but not at the expense of your well-being.

I hope this sounds supportive regardless of where your shop goes (which is my intent) and not overly assumptive and preachy. I'm so impressed with what you've built genuinely appreciate what you do.

Anonymous said...

I think you for sure should speak honestly. whatever you decide, man :) love you!

julia said...

to everyone - thank you so much for your love and support and for taking the time to write to me when i say so very little anymore. i think as time has gone on i've lost my words, everything is image based now and i forget what expressing what's in my brain is like. thank you to those who have left comments above, have emailed, called, or reached out. lots of love to you all. over the next few days i will respond to you all individually, but wanted to type something for now.

i hope maybe i can share more soon. it's hard, some of it i don't want to potentially get back to my factory and some business relations as well. but what i will say is this - i wish people in the industry were kinder and more compassionate. there is a lot of focus at the end of the day on connections and profit, and that is completely counter to what i strongly believe in.

Nadinoo said...

I just wanted to let you know I'm in the same position with my business and feel beaten by failure, especially of late.. It's not an easy topic to discuss on an online platform you wish to remain positive.

Sending you much love and heaps of empathy! Fingers crossed things change for the better, in whatever form.

Nadia x

L.P. said...

All I can say is, I know how you feel. This is such a hard busines... Not many people understand how much goes into it. Thank you for being brave and saying it out loud.